Day 5: Prayer

So I have been doing this Couch to 5k thing and I have an app on my phone that is designed specifically for this. In case you don't know what the Couch to 5k thing is, click here for more info. So the reason I have been doing this program because I want to change my life for the better. I am a fat girl, and I am not in any kind of shape at all. Anyway, I did Week 4 Day 3 today, and I was having a really hard time getting through the second 5 minute strait run. My mind flirted with stopping mid run and going strait to the walking section and I was even about to press the button to lower the speed until I caught sight of my faith symbol bouncing against my bosom (yes fancy way of saying boobs). Instead of focusing on how tired my legs were or on the cramp creeping it's crampy way into my right calf, I just thought instead. "Thank you Goddess for the strength you have shown me to get through this." I repeated this in my head over and over until I got through the last 2 and a half minutes of the run section.

There is a reason why I didn't ask for strength to get through it, and a reason why I thanked for the strength that I already had seen inside of me. I didn't ask for strength because I knew I already possessed it. Asking for more strength is asking for more weight to help build it. I knew I could do it, and I just had to get through it. People use prayer for many different things, and I mostly use prayer to express how thankful I am that She is in my life, and how I feel Her helping me. The Goddess is with me, as well as within me.

(Pardon my disjointed thoughts, they are still on designing not on writing.)

Day 4: Meditation

Meditation is key for a lot of things right? Relaxation, developing psychic abilities, communing with deity, etcetera.

Well I suck at meditating. It takes me a little bit to shut off my mind and get into the flow of stuff. It's not recommended to listen to music with lyrics and so on and so forth. Well I have a nice little website I go to for soothing rain noises and it instantly relaxes me.

I am implementing meditation time into my pre-bed routine because it does help me relax enough to go to bed. I've been a bit tense lately and I am sure this is going to help me feel better and sleep better. Just need to get better at it. Meditation doesn't have to be boring right? Anyway off to meditate end then go to bed.

Day 3: Circle Casting and Visualization

The concept of working with energy is still a hard one for me to grasp sometimes. What does energy work really mean, and stuff like that you know? Sometimes it can feel real spacey and new agey to me, however it can also feel very natural and flowing. Talking, or even thinking about feeling the natural resonance of plants or people sometimes gives me pause still. Creating energy buy chanting, dancing, visualization, and stuff like that still makes my logical brain snort with laughter. Silly logical brain, everything isn't completely logical.

What I plan on doing tonight is creating a circle, a bubble of protection around magickal working (I spell magick with a k because I like the way it looks so nener nener) or even to just feel safe.

Now while I sit and think about working with energy tonight, silly things go through my mind and even scenarios. What if I go the wrong way? Will it create an anti-circle that will suck out my soul through my butt? (See silly things.) Then I think, well which way do I actually go? Clockwise right? Yeah that sounds right. Well which way is clockwise? Lets look at the watch.... well shit, it's digital. Then I struggle to bring up the face of an analog watch in my head. My brain draws a blank and boy do I feel like a dork.

Now I have yet to start trying to cast a circle because I am afraid of doing it wrong. Yes I know it's really hard to cast a circle wrong, however, doing shit wrong is my specialty. My little perfectionist, and OCD parts of my brain are screaming at me to do it right, and to be perfect or to not do it at all. My brain hypes it up more than it really needs to be hyped up. Circle casting is basic, and easy. Don't really even need an incantation. Just a little energy and some visualization to get it going.

So I went to do my circle. I thought of what to do, with my last minute brain screaming in my head. It goes like this: "WAIT!! Finger or palm? RIGHT OR LEFT!?!?! Oh fuck it, just do it."

And I did do it. It felt tingly, and warm. I was surprisingly more awake than when I started this blog post. Anyway, thanks for going through day three with me.

Warm snuggles, and fleece blankets.

Day 2: Book of Shadows

Hey everyone! Tonight I am going to work on my book of shadows. It's not going to be a fancy thing just one of those composition books full of my thoughts and stuff I find cool, interesting, and other random shit.

I had some inspiration the other day on spiritualism and what it meant to me, so I think that is one of the thighs (things haha autocorrect) I will write about in my book. I have already done a book blessing and I have written in my book. I just haven't been faithful to keeping it up, which is my usual thing. 

Now I must get a move on!

Tomorrow on With a Pagan Twist, I have no idea what I am going to do but I at least have a list!!

Later taters.

Facebook Page!!

So for the first day of 100 Days of Witchy Ways, I have finally put together my Facebook page. You guys can totally get your daily fix of me on there. It's where I'll post random things that I find hilarious, and what not. Before you ask, yes making a Facebook page and setting it up is TOTALLY witchy, because it was a freaking miracle I actually got the banner and avatar done today! Potty training the youngest. Totally hard work.

Here's my page, run over and give it a like.

So some stuff I have on my list are:

Work on my Book of Shadows
Make a Potion
House Blessing
Candle Magick
Make a Moon Chart
Make a Goddess Symbol
Practice casting circles and calling quarters
Practice with my tarot cards
Charge a candle for magickal workings
Cord Magick
Charge a Crystal
Scrying with a scrying bowl
Learn to use runes as a divination tool

Yeah I know it's less than two weeks worth of stuff, however, I am sure I will come up with some more stuff and I am always open to suggestions! So go pimp me out to your Pagan buddies and get me out there! I'll do some pimping myself when I finish up with this post.

Hugs, kisses and kitty licks!

P.S. I just thought of another one!
Mediation

P.S.S And I thought of another couple!!

Commune with nature

Prayer (Yes prayer, because crafting an effective prayer is important when speaking to the deity (that auto corrected to dirty hahaha) that you believe in.

June First.

Oh my gods I have been busy the last couple of weeks! I hardly knew it was June first until I checked my calender. Anyway, I am getting ready to kick off 100 days of Witchy Ways even though my list is hardly complete. I have a lot of good starter ideas and as this goes on I hope I will get more stuff to do. I will post my partial list later on, as well as what I am doing to day as starter for the 100 Days Of Witchy Ways event.

Peace, love, and puppy dog hugs.

Blogger on the go!!

So I got me the blogger app for my iPhone a little while ago to update this blog on the go. I am just now getting around to checking it out. Unlike kids nowadays, I type far faster on a keyboard than I do with my thumbs. However the blogger app interface is pretty cool for it being a free app and I get automatic spelling corrections from autocorrect.

Being that its me that I am talking about I will totally leave in the more hilarious autocorrects if they happen during one of my phone in days. Haha phone in days. So I have been thinking off and on about the 100 Days of Witchy Ways off and on today because it slipped my mind last night. I am totally open for suggestions on stuff to do for my list and I am thinking of starting on the first of June to give ample time to compile a 100 day list.

I am going to start my list and marinate on what to do. Now here is what I need you guys to do. Start thinking of stuff for me to do as well. All of this includes candle making, making potions, tinctures, and other things you can think of. Leave it in the comments section or on twitter. I am currently working on a Facebook page for the blog and I will let you know when it is done so you can pimp me out on a regular basis.

Hugs, loves and puppy dog tugs.

P.S. Hope all you mommies have a great mommies day!!

Star Gazing

So I saw on the I fucking love science Facebook page that Venus and Jupiter were going to be visible last night (and tonight too!). So I was at my dad's house, and he has wide open spaces, and a clear view of the western horizon. I totally wanted to see the planet/Goddess that ruled my Sun Sign, and add in the king of the gods on top of that? I was all over it like stink on a wet dog. So I waited. Sun was going down, got a beautiful picture of my sons sitting in the doorway, and watched the sunset. I made the hubs bring the binoculars to see her in her glory.

Sun goes down, stars start coming out, Jupiter looking amazingly bright, and still the Goddess of Love and Beauty still didn't show her darling face. I was disappointed! I thought maybe the distant mountains were in my way from seeing her. The darling hubs insisted that I calm down and wait a bit longer while checking out the other early stars that came out to play, and we did. We enjoyed it so much the hubs actually said we should do it more often. I told him if we did we totally need to get a telescope, because that would make it so much more awesome. 15 minutes pass by and I spot her. She was at least a thumbs width above the mountains and I squealed in happiness. It had been a long time since I stopped and checked out the stars and planets. It was amazingly beautiful and I was ecstatic.

Peace, love, and star sprinkles.

100 days of Witchy ways.

What better way than to get rid of a little writers block than to come up with something to do daily? So I am struggling with ways of keeping up with my projects and I keep feeling like I am overwhelming myself. No longer! I am going to start scheduling things, and do them when they are scheduled.

I have started to train for a 5k next month, by doing the Couch to 5k program. I know only a month of training isn't going to have me running the whole 5k, but it's giving me some motivation to keep it up. I wanted to do the Color Run in Reno, but I don't know what happened to it. It disappeared off the Color Run website. Anyway, if I can schedule runs, then I should be able to schedule other things.

Like maybe 100 days of Witchy Ways. I've seen things like 100 days of clean eating, other 100 day challenges. I don't see this as a challenge though. I see this as fun. Just as I see the couch to 5k program. So far I am enjoying it so much I want to do it every day, even though I woke up this morning a bit sore.

So what should this 100 days of Witchy Ways start with? How about a house blessing? I need to do one of those. I am going to commit some time to making a list tonight and post it tomorrow.

Sigh

I have writers block. All kinds of block. I missed Beltane, and I feel just bleh. I am going to start listing a ton of topics to write about and hopefully start writing some more.

I had submitted a short story to a publisher for an anthology, but I was rejected. I am completely okay with that. It actually hurt a lot less than I thought it would. I know my story wasn't up to par, but soon I will get it there, and resubmit. Maybe even make it into a full length novel.

I am going to start eating an all natural diet, and I have started growing my own sage. My oldest son brought home a tree, a bean sprout, and some corn sprouts as part of his pre school project, and I am going to try to keep them going. Growing things always makes me feel pretty awesome because I always thought I couldn't grow anything. Makes me feel one with nature.

I got a necklace to symbolize my faith. It's gorgeous and when I saw it, I swear it demanded me to get it. It reminds me to thank the Goddess and God every day for my many blessings in life.

This is me signing off. Sometimes serious, all the time weird.

Oh and you can follow me on twitter too. I update that about as regularly as I update this blog!! I'm working on being better. I promise.