Day 13: Charging Crystals

I love crystals. I really do. They are so pretty and they are like nature's batteries. Great for learning how to feel energy and stuff. Anyway, I was at this wonderful second hand store a few weeks ago and I found this beautiful little rose quartz. I had to get it. It screamed at me. I've been waiting for full moon to charge it, however there are many different ways to cleanse and charge crystals, so I might as well do it tonight!

Isn't it purty!? (It is rose quartz... terrible lighting.)

So I totally had to look up ways to cleanse a crystal that didn't involve the moonlight. I had to rule a few out, seeing as I don't have natural source of water handy. I don't really think the tap counts, and well I live in the desert. Oh look I can use a bell! I have 3 bells... I think I will use my triple goddess one and hope I don't wake the hubs. He might smother me in my sleep when I finally get to bed.

Love the triple goddess symbol.

Okay so the instructions say to ring the bell with the crystal as close to the origin of the sound until I feel the energy of the crystal become clear. Alrighty I am on it! (I do not suggest doing this late at night. It's like making popcorn in the middle of the night... Sounds super loud even though I am sure it isn't that loud.)

Crystal cleansed and charged. Time to go curl up under my warm blanket and cuddle a little with my human heater.

Peace, love, and apple sauce. <3

Day 3: Circle Casting and Visualization

The concept of working with energy is still a hard one for me to grasp sometimes. What does energy work really mean, and stuff like that you know? Sometimes it can feel real spacey and new agey to me, however it can also feel very natural and flowing. Talking, or even thinking about feeling the natural resonance of plants or people sometimes gives me pause still. Creating energy buy chanting, dancing, visualization, and stuff like that still makes my logical brain snort with laughter. Silly logical brain, everything isn't completely logical.

What I plan on doing tonight is creating a circle, a bubble of protection around magickal working (I spell magick with a k because I like the way it looks so nener nener) or even to just feel safe.

Now while I sit and think about working with energy tonight, silly things go through my mind and even scenarios. What if I go the wrong way? Will it create an anti-circle that will suck out my soul through my butt? (See silly things.) Then I think, well which way do I actually go? Clockwise right? Yeah that sounds right. Well which way is clockwise? Lets look at the watch.... well shit, it's digital. Then I struggle to bring up the face of an analog watch in my head. My brain draws a blank and boy do I feel like a dork.

Now I have yet to start trying to cast a circle because I am afraid of doing it wrong. Yes I know it's really hard to cast a circle wrong, however, doing shit wrong is my specialty. My little perfectionist, and OCD parts of my brain are screaming at me to do it right, and to be perfect or to not do it at all. My brain hypes it up more than it really needs to be hyped up. Circle casting is basic, and easy. Don't really even need an incantation. Just a little energy and some visualization to get it going.

So I went to do my circle. I thought of what to do, with my last minute brain screaming in my head. It goes like this: "WAIT!! Finger or palm? RIGHT OR LEFT!?!?! Oh fuck it, just do it."

And I did do it. It felt tingly, and warm. I was surprisingly more awake than when I started this blog post. Anyway, thanks for going through day three with me.

Warm snuggles, and fleece blankets.

Full Moon!

It's that time of the month again! No I'm not talking about that. I am talking about it being a full moon!! I have been feeling so energized lately it's awesome. I see my little moon widget over on the right hand side and thing "Oh that's so pretty." I really think the full moon is amazing and gorgeous. I think I am starting to get a rhythm going on this, because I am starting to feel the energy returning and building. I have no idea what to do for this full moon. I know, you're not surprised. I read on the Domestic Witch that it would be a good time to sew some seeds. Well, maybe I should sew the seeds for me to be more organized, and be able to plan better. That sounds like a good idea.

Bleeeeehhhh and Spook

Sorry I haven't updated for a while. First I was busy and couldn't think of what to write, then I thought of something I could write, then I got sick. Which is where I am currently. In the land of Sicktopia stuck on the island of Abdominal Distress. I looked my symptoms up on Web MD this morning and it told me that I was having a heart attack and I should dial 911 right away... then I kept reading and it could be abdominal distress which heart attacks are frequently mistaken for, so I am just going to go with abdominal distress since I am still alive now. If I read that last night when I thought I was dying, I would have probably forced the hubs into taking me to the ER. I am not going to go into details about my abdominal distress, but I can say this, I would not wish it on my most terrible of enemy. (I currently don't have a most terrible enemy so I guess that point is moot, right?)

So before I got sick my post was going to be about the spooky and nearly shit myself story about an angry male spirit yelling in my face. So on the morning of Feb 27, I was scared out of bed by a very angry male spirit screaming in my face "Watch it (or "out"), mother fucker!" I immediately sat up, woke the hubs up to see if he heard it. He didn't. I couldn't lay back down. I was thoroughly freaked out, so I went into the kitchen and made some coffee and huddled around it until I could stop freaking out. See that was the scariest spirit experience I have ever had. I have never been yelled at by any spirit ever, and with that level of anger that came of that dude. I shudder even thinking about it. Anyway, so being the smart person I am, before I go to bed I decide to go and take a picture of my side of the bed with my digital camera. Well, that wasn't smart. I look at the picture and I swear I see a pair of eyes looking at me over my side of the bed. I freaked the freak out. The next day, after sleeping so poorly the night before, I convinced the hubs to give me some money to buy a sage stick. I went on my favorite magickal website, and ordered me a smudge stick, a smudge pot and a black feather. I got the sage with sweetgrass. The smudge pot was smaller than I expected, but I didn't really read the description either, so that one was on me. Anyway, so I got it in the next week, and I waited for the right time to smudge. Which presented itself a week later when the hubs took the children to the park.

I light the stick... I light it again.... and again.... and again. What in the actual fuck? I get it to light for two seconds and it goes out, produces little smoke and then goes out completely. Just before I got frustrated, I managed to get it lit and I do a walk through. My nose is a little stuffed this day because this is when I am starting to get sick, so the smoke smells like marijuana to my stuffed nose. I thought for sure one of my neighbors in the complex or maybe even the apartment manager was going to run up to my apartment and bang on the door, wondering why I am smoking it when there is a clear no drugs policy. As I am walking through my apartment I am saying, "If you are nice, you can stay, if you are mean, get out now." I grew up with nice spirits never bothering me, every once in a while getting a little spooked by the odd shape in the corner, but never a full out scream in my face. So I finish the walk through, and I am tired at this time. I snuff my smudge stick and let the smoke drift through the apartment. All windows and most doors are open. Couldn't have the front door open because I don't think my neighbors would appreciate my dog running around and jumping on them while desperately trying to get them to play with him. That dog is a people attention whore. I veg out in front of the computer for a little bit, then I close all the windows and do a happy jig because I can finally go into my bedroom without anyone else. The mean spirit I felt was gone and now I am no longer afraid.

Not sure how to end this whole thing... maybe if you get the shit scared out of you by an angry spirit, tell them to get out and smudge the shit out of your place. Oh and don't Web MD any symptoms for anything. According to them your death is immediate.

Peace, love, and hot dogs.

Full Moon: Healing

Tonight was awesome. I had a great ritual tonight, and the apartment is laced with sandalwood still. I like that smell. It's yummy. I feel blessed, and I am glad I didn't lazy out of the ritual tonight. I had much to be thankful for and I got to thank Her for it. She filled me with new ideas and hope. I have accomplished much this moon, and I feel better for it.

This girl is tired. It's past her bed time. 

Shitting Crow signing off for the night.

(hehehe still cracks me up)